Obviously, I’m not working on Crop anymore. I’ve been editing like crazy.
The wrap for Seed is done, along with the cover of Crop. The wrap for Crop could be done in about an hour.
I like that wraps used to take me something like sixteen hours, and now it’s down to an hour or so.
I had an anxiety attack Sunday so bad that I was in tears. It continued into Monday. No reason for it, just over stressed about the day-job and the move coming up I guess.
Monday night, I played some video games and had a little wine. Just unwound basically. The attack passed sometime around midnight on Monday.
I didn’t get out of bed until one on Tuesday, and then only because my older cat demanded I get up.
So that he could sleep on the couch instead of the bed…
Jerk.
Sometimes caring for yourself means sleeping off the tremor created by attacks and the weariness from forcing yourself through a day. This was the first time in years that I didn’t want to get out of bed.
And last time it was also a cat that made me get up. Except that time it was so he could sleep in my spot.
Cats. They are so mean.
Once I got up yesterday I finished writing Contract Gifted which isn’t a big deal, it was only two chapters left. Then I put it through a chunk edit and started a regular edit. One chapter left for that edit and I plan to do it at work today.
I also started looking at photos for the cover. I have to figure out how many edits it needs, but it could be up as early as next week.
Novelettes are kind of nifty, but I’m not certain I have a plot or way to do another one. It’s just that Nicole popped up just before Christmas and was like, “Hello,” and it just worked itself out.
Tomorrow I start Awakened and I don’t have the energy to be excited about it. The attack is still riding the edge of my mood and it could be a while before I completely recover.
Or I could be tired because I forgot to take my pills and eat before leaving the apartment. Or it could be weariness in general. I want to move yesterday. And as much as I ‘booked’ six weeks off because I know all but one is going to be anxiety riddled and scary, I want it to happen and I want to be on the other side.
Awakened will have to keep me distracted until then. Four weeks, and supposedly twenty-four chapters to go. That’s about 100k words. 25k a week, or about 6 chapters.
Okay. Maybe I’m a little excited. Just a smidgen.
Aya DeAniege 