Or in this case, too many links.
Prototype has been on my work desk, so to speak, since September when it seemed to fight every step of the way. Since then I’ve revisited it in the planning stages several times. Each time I can only shrug and put it back on the shelf, uncertain of what happened.
I think I figured it out.
I was walking to the bus stop and thinking about Contract Signed which is m/m. That’s definitely not everyone’s cup of tea and Signed would be my first published m/m so those who are not long time readers are not going to be expecting it so much.
Just because I keep talking about it, doesn’t mean people are listening. In fact, for me it almost guarantees that no one who the warnings are for are listening. That’s the way it goes, how it’s always gone.
So, walking to the bus stop, I’m trying to figure out how to word that once the trilogy is complete and ready to go. It kind of comes to me, except inside my head me was all “if you don’t like this, give me about an hour.”
And I went, “What the fuck does that mean? Who can come up with a solution in an hour? This is problem solving time, not fantasy!”
To which the voice inside my head said something very mean.
A few minutes later I was presented with another status update that started with, “and for all you readers, here’s a m/f story.”
To which I did role call to try to put something in that spot.
Prototype is always at the top of role call. Every month I’ve started, or said I was going to start, a new story, Prototype is the first story brought up as a possibility.
This time the voice didn’t ask. The world was dumped on me and then we proceeded arguing with one another about it being broken and which of us was to blame for it being broken.
Yes, I talk and argue with myself inside my head. But it’s nice to have a sounding board sometimes.
At some point the voice in my head started ripping scenes out of Prototype and basically throwing them out as I protested that it couldn’t go. We needed that and that and…
And then it hit me in the face with the pared down version.
Which had removed the general world building and just focused on the characters.
“It’s a series. There will be plenty of time for world building in books two to sixty.”
I don’t know when I’ll be able to work on it again. Nearly everything but chapter one news to be thrown out. That’s okay though. It’s not the first time I’ve had to start from scratch on a story.